Yet again, this is not the topic that I have been mulling over in my head. But its prominence has pushed the other topic out of the way... For now....
It has dawned on me why I have been stuck with my weight loss, teetering between 174 and 178, since July. It occurred to me in an early morning epiphany. It jolted me from a dead sleep, even. It has nothing to do with my diet or exercise, actually. I forgot to keep accepting myself. I've become impatient and focused too much on my dress size instead of my wholeness. I've even found myself feeling "fat".
I had to remind myself that the first thing that I did when I got my motivation to change my lifestyle was to accept myself in all my glory of 263 pounds. The pressure immediately left me. I was already awesome, I just made small steps to be more awesome. I was beautiful at 263 pounds, I'm still beautiful at 176 (that's what I was this morning). I will continue to make steps in the right direction towards my total wholeness.
As proof of my growth, my friend even took a picture of ME that I actually like.
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| I love how dorky I am! :) |
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