So I had this little surgery on my neck to fix a herniated disk that has limited my abilities for a few weeks now. The most important is that I can't lift over 20 pounds, meaning I can't lift Javy. I've been living with this issue for almost two years now. You can refer back to my previous post "Heavy" for more info. I don't really want to talk abut my issues now, Lord only knows I have plenty.
I want to address why it was necessary to do this now. Because it was now or never. I have to prepare for the next phase of Javy's life- being an awkward gangly teenager. For me that means making my back stronger, well, my whole body stronger. So a short time of suffering, that has been eased with the help of a great many friends, is worth it in the long run.
As I type this, I just realized that may be the answer to another questionI've been asked a lot, lately. How come you've been able to be successful now, losing so much weight. I kind of scratch my head at this one, too. I've had 39 years of failure, why now? The motivation, seemingly came out of nowhere without too much pain. I don't believe it's a motivation of fear- fear of turning forty and missing out on the rest of my life. Fear never works as a motivator, at least for me. But life has always had a way of working out for us, with everything falling into place when necessary with very little effort coming from me. (My ancestors must've been really good for me to be so blessed). Maybe that's all it is, everything just working out, making way for the next phase of our life. Hours wasted worrying for nothing, because its all under control.
I want to address why it was necessary to do this now. Because it was now or never. I have to prepare for the next phase of Javy's life- being an awkward gangly teenager. For me that means making my back stronger, well, my whole body stronger. So a short time of suffering, that has been eased with the help of a great many friends, is worth it in the long run.
As I type this, I just realized that may be the answer to another questionI've been asked a lot, lately. How come you've been able to be successful now, losing so much weight. I kind of scratch my head at this one, too. I've had 39 years of failure, why now? The motivation, seemingly came out of nowhere without too much pain. I don't believe it's a motivation of fear- fear of turning forty and missing out on the rest of my life. Fear never works as a motivator, at least for me. But life has always had a way of working out for us, with everything falling into place when necessary with very little effort coming from me. (My ancestors must've been really good for me to be so blessed). Maybe that's all it is, everything just working out, making way for the next phase of our life. Hours wasted worrying for nothing, because its all under control.
